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my Heavenly Father watches over me... |Daily Post #9|

Updated: Mar 6



What a crazy last week. Never did I ever think that I can fall into my past sins. And yet here I am. I just wasted days doing nothing and indulging in my sensual pleasures. Trying to distance my self towards God. And yet, today was different. The Lord reminded me through TV not to commit sexual immorality. Yet I brushed it off. The Lord reminded me to draw close to Him once more through His word. Yet I brushed it off. And today while working, I stumbled upon this song, "My Heavenly Father watches over me" 🎵.


These lyrics resonated with me:

For come what may, from day to day,

My heav’nly Father watches over me.


I trust in God, I know He cares for me;

On mountain bleak or on the stormy sea;

Though billows roll, He keeps my soul;

My heav’nly Father watches over me.


 

In that moment I knew. Even as I became unfaithful, the Lord still watches over me. Caring for me from a distance. From day to day, whatever happens, He watches over me... And in that moment I felt so so much love. Hiks hiks😭. I realized that even as my earthly Dad has passed, I never felt the Lord's presence ever more clear🙇. I truly don't understand it. Even now writing this my eyes puffs up. Why O Lord? Why are You so good? So kind towards me?🥺.


I have repeatedly hurt and commit sin after sin. You see my transgressions. My vileness. My evil heart that tries to be god. My repeated iniquities that is so very offensive😰. And yet. You cared for me in all the good and bad days. Past. Present. Future. Thank You O Lord for Your faithfulness. I have sinned. So very much. And Lord. I would understand it if You condemn me to hell. Or if You forsaken me. Because I would do the same if I met someone as wretched as me. Yet why O Lord? Do You continually to give me mercy?😱 I know I don't deserve it. Even after knowing You I have hurt You repeatedly... And yet why O Lord? Why be kind towards me? 😭.


Only in reading Your word do I realize of Your greatness Father.

Growing up with a doting parent who constantly laser focuses on my mistakes is tiring😔. Yet You are not like that Lord. You are abounding in mercy and You are infinitely wise—

He will not always chide, nor will he keep his anger forever. Psalm 103:9 😠⛔😌

You don't always have to chide or scold or rebuke me every time. And when I do make You angry, You are beyond patient. Nor do You keep Your anger forever...

Today when I felt this heavy burden of sin condemning me😔, I realized O Lord that the evil one does that. And yet,

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1 🚫✝️

You abhor sin and rightfully so do You get angry at our transgressions O Lord😡. Yet unlike this world, You do not repay an eye for an eye or a tooth for a tooth in regards to our sins—

He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. Psalm 103:10 ⚠️⚖️🙅‍♂️

And for that I am grateful... I never knew about this Lord. Imagine if You repaid us sin by sin, I am sure then that we would all be guilty to the highest degree😯. And yet You are merciful Lord and do not repay our sins according to our iniquities...

Not only that, You reminded me today Lord of Your great steadfast love—

For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love towards those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us. Psalm 103:11-12 💗

As high as the heavens, as far from east to west, how high and wide is Your ever great steadfast love! Thank You O Lord for Your great great love that radiates through the ends of the earths👑. It's so warm, fuzzy, peaceful, shalom☀️. And Lord thank You for extending Your great love towards me😭😭😭. Not only do You not see our sins for what it is, do You also remove our transgressions from us. Thank You for giving me grace once more and forgiving me🙇. And lastly, thank You Father for being such a great Father for me—

As a father shows compassion to his children, so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear him. Psalm 103:13 🤗👨‍👦

I miss my Dad during times like these. Yet O Lord, knowing You has been even better.. Thank You for Your discipline. And thank You so so much for Your compassion towards me. I have been a haughty naughty child, and yet You have given me compassion time and time again. For those who fear Him. And I do fear Lord of Your presence leaving me. I do fear of losing this amazing relationship. As I know I will fail You. Yet You remind me O Lord of my shortcomings. That You are our High Priest who can sympathize with our weaknesses, yet is without sin. You know how limited I am—

For he knows our frame; he remembers that we are dust. Psalm 103:14 ⏳

That as my heavenly Father You are able to show compassion because You know my frame. My weaknesses and that I am dust before Your awesome glory. That my spirit is indeed willing but my flesh is weak. Please Lord help me not be arrogant in the future, but to cling on towards You in each and every moment. As my Lord Jesus Christ proved that it is a possible to live a holy and righteous life. If indeed we are willing to whole heartedly seek and rely towards Your Will. Asking of the Holy Spirit to give us strength.

 

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for another day of grace O Lord. It's been a while since I truly felt alive once more. I'm sorry Lord, truly🙇. Please help me for another day. And discipline and rebuke me. I don't want to always hurt You, yet I know I'm weak and I dare not make promises I can't keep. Thank You O Lord for believing in me time and time again. Please Lord give me strength and to trust You once more...🤲

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.



Updated on: May 29, 2023 | June 27, 2023

Credits: 📷Wonderlane

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